The "Smittee"

Lately I've been fascinated by this idea of being "smitten" with someone. I think it's generally understood that this word relates to being smitten by someone from the opposite sex. More often than not, I think that's true. But I also think it's amazing how sometimes that can happen with meeting new people...I think it can simply mean a general attraction.

For example, let's say I'm at a party with 50 strangers. There is something natural inside of all of us that want to gravitate towards someone or a group of people because you're in a social environment and don't want to be the creep in the corner. What is it that helps us decide who we should talk to? What is it inside of us that provokes that spark you have with someone- no matter what sex they're from.

For example, what is it inside of me that decides that out of all my female acquaintances, I know that this person or that person will probably be friends with me for a very long time? While most of the other ones I will probably not know for a few more years? Or how I would literally do anything for a few close friends and would rather not do much of anything for other friends? What IS it about having those relationships that makes us a little crazy? That makes us want to drive across the friggin country or fly across the friggin world to spend some time with them. Not "crazy" as in a little psycho/obsessed, I mean.... that real, genuine love for friends that would make you do just about anything for them. I'm so fascinated by this! And ya know what even blows my mind away even more? That Christ is smitten with us, and He has that real love for us--He's crazy about us! I wonder if God gave us love like that so we could understand how much He loves us?

I've lately thought about this in reference to men/mates too. I've met a lot of nice fellows in Charlotte so far, and I have to be really careful to be honest. I tend to be smitten a little too easily. Problem is, I'm usually the one to be smitten and the "smittee" forgets about me the next day. I say that not for a pity party--it's the truth! So I've made a decision. I refuse to become smitten with a boy until he is smitten with me. Or at least, until he's made a pretty darn good effort to communicate that he's really into me.

I believe if I don't start guarding my heart I'll start to become really bitter towards guys and that's the last thing I want to happen. I like guys.

I guess I've been thinking lately how nice it would be for one day some man to be smitten with me...and how that would feel if I were equally smitten by him! I look forward to the day, and I hope my standards are not too high...just seems like that should be a minimum for a relationship ever working, ya know? I better love him if I'm gonna wash his underwear, and he better love me if he has to listen to my loud music. hehe ok I'm done now. Had to get that off my chest.

Deb Talan

I have never listened to another artist that consistently takes my little heart and squeezes it every time I listen to their music. Deb Talan, I applaud you.

Ideas and the Future

I'm not trying to brag or anything, but I have good ideas sometimes. I can say that because I've had a decent amount of random ideas over the past few years and they keep ending up being invented by somebody! So I'm going on record for stuff I think will be invented soon or claiming ideas already invented. Why? Because I'm bored and unemployed and I need to have an ounce of confidence in myself that's been taken away by no job... that's why :)

I thought of a business that allows people to call or text to ask any question in the world. People would pay monthly or per question. It could be run by one person to begin with then grown when business gets better. They invented KGB.com which is exactly my idea! I took the test for working there and passed, now I'm just waiting on their training to start.

Last year I thought that cars should give you the option of the car automatically turning it's music volume down when it slows down/comes to a stop. Well, I was in my new car the other day and realized it does that automatically. Cool!

I thought of celebrity voices on GPS units instead of that mechanical sounding woman. A few months ago I found out they made one with Snoop Dog's voice on it. I think they'll keep going with this. Soon, I'll have Brad Pitt telling me what to do....

I knew they'd have the Starbucks road signs on the highways! It's about time, but they need to develop it more and have all coffee shops included in the Food signs on the interstates. They also copied my double shot over ice drink and included it in a monthly special!

We'll also have iPod/iPhone holders for our steering wheels, dashboards and/or the back of seats. Yes, this is sad, but darnit, when I'm on a plane or driving a bajilion hours in a car on a straight highway, I kinda wanna watch a movie on my iPod. My hand gets tired from holding it and I can't tape it to my steering wheel. Just watch, it'll be here soon...

About 3 or 4 years ago I looked all over the stinking place for a "mini computer". Basically a tiny type pad that I could take with me wherever I go (ie- travel journals) but not paying an arm and a leg. I seriously did a lot of research looking for this kind of thing. Now, you can buy a tiny laptop computer with basic computer/typing functions for a few hundred bucks. I think in the next 5 years they'll have them even smaller and its' only function will be typing and maybe email....oh, and like under $40 or $50.

They should be programing phones so that when we plug it in to charge, we can choose something like "Charge Mode" so it automatically stops charging once it's totally charged. This would allow cell phones, computers, anything chargeable to not be damaged by being plugged up for way too long. Or maybe an "Overnight Charge Mode" so it charges slowly for 7-9 hours.

I think in the next 5-10 years we will have tiny tracking devices that look like a sticker. We can put these stickers on just about anything- our cars, computers, phones, passports, credit cards, wallets, etc. You will have the option of programing them to your computer so if you lose one of these things you can go to your computer and look up where your item is. By that time, it can connect to Google maps so you can track it in case you've lost it or had it stolen. OR you can buy the advanced stickers which have a tiny device that sounds an alarm when you need it to... like when you're in your house going crazy looking for your wallet when it's actually stuck under a couch cushion in your living room. The whole kit shouldn't cost more than $100 eventually, but it'll be pretty expensive at the beginning.

We will also have keychain breathalyzers. Yeah, no more leaving a party in the car while second guessing yourself whether you're over the alcohol limit. These keychains, which shouldn't cost more than $20, will help you and your friends stay safe while having fun on the town.... and will let you prove to your friend that they're drunk while they're saying, "No really man, I've only had 10 beers, I'm totally fine".

I think National Polls will start to become a CRAZE in the United States. They will be the most popular thing ever and we'll be talking about them every day. Soon, people will be like, "Dude, did you hear the poll from last week about cell phones?!" or whatever. Every week we'll have 1-5 questions asked about our personal lives so that we know more about trends in the States. They'll ask us simple questions like- Do you like living in a city? Or how often do you drink coffee? Whatever. They could be funny, personal, or totally random. I'm not sure if they could figure out an incentive program for people who did the poll- like a coupon or something, but that'd be cool. The results for these polls would be all over the news and main TV shows too. I see this happening!

Anyway, thanks for letting me get that off my chest. There's a good chance none of these things will ever happen but I feel better now that I've said my opinion. :)

When Did This Happen?

When I was younger, people always thought I was a lot older than I really was. I always got the, "You're only 16?!" kind of comments. Sometime around the age of 23 or so that stopped, and people thought I was younger than I was. I got the, "Oh wow, I thought you were like 19" comments. So I've been convinced that I've been a 19 year old for about 6 or 7 years.

Even a few years ago I still felt like a teenager- I felt/feel immature in certain scenarios-- especially socially. Deep down, under the composed facade, I'm a big pervert. (ha!) No, but I thought of the idea of me being married with kids, for example, a few years ago. That idea was insane to me, because I felt like just a kid. A kid having a kid- weird.

But something has happened over the past year or so. Somehow I feel like an adult all of the sudden. Not like an old crazy cat lady hag or anything, just like an adult. Something happened in the past year or so that has helped me fall into this roll of a "responsible" adult. The ideas of having a husband and making a home and taking care of kids doesn't feel all that foreign to me anymore. It's a pretty strange feeling, honestly. Not to say there was ever a point where I didn't want a boyfriend or husband, ya know. I'm not saying I finally want one.... but rather, I'm finally ready for all that jazz.

Hmm... weird.

Now that I'm a real adult, do I need to start investing in retirement and 401k's?!

Maybe I'll skip that part for a few years. :)