Wrote this a while back... Thank God for grace and sanctification!

The pain ive felt for oh so long
the grip upon the Son feels gone-
ive felt a distance that leaves me cold
the promises ive seen have now been sold-
my mind lingers in a world so passive
unconcerned and remaining so evasive-
His house doesnt seem so holy anymore
just an uncomfortable troubling bore-
my once apparent thirst in me
never intrudes or knocks, it flees-
i pray for help and a loving friend
yet i do not feel your hand to mend-
dont move away from me, please hear
your ice cold heart is all that i fear-
i want to be everything You want
yet my thirst is choked by satans taunt-
what i admit i will never be proud
and these things i hate, i hate to be loud
but youre all thats keeping me alive
so i want to feel your breath to strive-
take my struggles and set them free
so i can take your love and live for Thee-
im broken helpless for you Lord
rescue me from my sinful world.